Holidays

This time of the year is the hardest time to not have Peter around. I feel lonely even when I am surrounded by family, during the Thanksgiving dinner prayer cousin Larry gave Peter a shout out and in that moment I would have given anything to glance up and see him sipping on something in the middle of the prayer =). Christmas is just around the corner and I just don't feel like it's the holiday season, which is crazy for anyone that really knows me, because from the moment I see the red cup at starbucks I am in full blown holiday mode, yet this year I noticed that I didn't even squeal in excitement when I heard my first Christmas song on the radio. I saw Peter via skype a couple of times this weekend and loved every moment of it. He got to see Jacob and Annabelle, I loved hearing him laugh when Jacob was being his normal goofball self. This Blog has no purpose, it has no specific style, and frankly it has no direction. To me this Blog is important because it gives me a chance to express what I feel in the moment, never really sure that anyone will actually get to share in that moment with me, and trusting on some level that by expressing out loud (via media) what I feel that I can make room for more emotions which are sure to come. I feel like time is slowly passing by while he is not here and I just can't wait to hug him. I ask you to continue to pray for him and his safety, and I am forever grateful for all your support out there. Happy Holiday Season to all of you.

Voting Day

I really miss Peter today, we are not a very emotional family and try not to be so open, however, I miss my older brother, I wish so bad that I can give him a hug. I know that he is doing the best he can to keep himself safe and all of us ungrateful citizens who find it easier to give an opinion than to actually get up and do something. I fear this election the most because I don't want things to change for Peter, I want him home, I want him near, and I am not sure everyone on the ballot today has the same wants and needs. This is a short post, asking the voters out there to think of more than yourselves and those within a short radius of you, think of all the outcomes and possibilities before you take a popular vote or even a not so popular vote for the fun of it. Don't waste your vote, don't waste the next four years because this does matter to me, to my brother, and to everyone else. Be smart, be wise, and dare to challenge what everyone is telling you is right. I love my brother so much and if I can make him a tenth proud of me as I am of him than I will be happy. Go out there and make yourself proud. Be a good person, believe in something and don't let anyone change your mind. Stay Safe Peter. I miss you so much, and I can't wait to see you.