Holidays

This time of the year is the hardest time to not have Peter around. I feel lonely even when I am surrounded by family, during the Thanksgiving dinner prayer cousin Larry gave Peter a shout out and in that moment I would have given anything to glance up and see him sipping on something in the middle of the prayer =). Christmas is just around the corner and I just don't feel like it's the holiday season, which is crazy for anyone that really knows me, because from the moment I see the red cup at starbucks I am in full blown holiday mode, yet this year I noticed that I didn't even squeal in excitement when I heard my first Christmas song on the radio. I saw Peter via skype a couple of times this weekend and loved every moment of it. He got to see Jacob and Annabelle, I loved hearing him laugh when Jacob was being his normal goofball self. This Blog has no purpose, it has no specific style, and frankly it has no direction. To me this Blog is important because it gives me a chance to express what I feel in the moment, never really sure that anyone will actually get to share in that moment with me, and trusting on some level that by expressing out loud (via media) what I feel that I can make room for more emotions which are sure to come. I feel like time is slowly passing by while he is not here and I just can't wait to hug him. I ask you to continue to pray for him and his safety, and I am forever grateful for all your support out there. Happy Holiday Season to all of you.